Colors Of The Wind

Colors Of The Wind

You think you own whatever land you land on
Earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name
You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You learn things you never knew
You never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
Or ask the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once never wonder what they're worth
The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
And the heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle in a hoop that never ends
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
or let the eagle tell you where hes been
can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
can you paint with all the colors of the wind
can you paint with all the colors of the wind

How high does the sycamore grow
If you cut it down, then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper - skinned
We just sing with all the voices of the mountain
Need to paint with all the colors of the wind
You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all colors of the wind.
---Singer - Vanessa Williams

News Addictions, Business and Holiday

I just feel, I can’t survive without following news on TV. Last month, I was following same news – from BBC , CNN , Sky, RT and Aljazeera. I was also following same news on different newspapers. I added most of the news feed on my twitter and I  was reading all tweets. I found – a truth, that most of the news broadcasted from all channel are almost identical. I was following news to predict possible war in this April. Will it happen? If it happens, how I will prepare my business to avoid risks. But it turned into an addiction to know the flow of information, events of notifications and different channels of communications. It gave me excitement and joy of how technology is making our life more responsive to the news and events in the global perspectives.  I was not used to with gaving priority on news. As a result, I lost a huge sum in 2008 when British Pound was crashed. I did not believe the trend of news. Is it so important for an entrepreneur to follow news that much? I am not sure. Will see the effect – possibly I will write in future on this. 
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Always, I hear from my other business associates “Business is not like before”. Business evolves everyday. It grows with increasing expenses and that impact on declined profits. Business moves through transaction cycles. For a few years, it moves fast and then slows down and moves fast again. As an entrepreneur, my strategy needs to work on maintaining the steady growth of revenue and reducing cost of service and increasing satisfaction of both my customers and my employees. These four factors are tricky. My knowledge from business schools assisted me to make more mistakes – my instinct leaded me to the path to mix these four factors to achieve my goals. I just feel like instinct of a person becomes matured over time. So, my old school of business knowledge, mixes up with the current affairs and helps me to make decision rather depending on the old style of decision making processes. that was one of the reason - I started to go very serious about news. 


After a few week of condensed new following exercise, I got a severe neck pain, back pain and shoulder pain. I was unable to move for two weeks. I went physiotherapy, medical advises and all sorts of things. I was feeling muscle pain and nothing was working. I was unable to sleep and attend meetings. I was unable to drive - my wife used to drop me to the office. I even bumped a lady’s Mercedes at woodmead – as an effect of strong medicine. Life became somehow confined because of watching TV and nonsense exercise. My thinking process was slow for the medication. I was thinking, I may not recover soon.

I was feeling petty for Mehnaz ( my daughter), I was unable to take her anywhere on her school holidays. I promised her for skiing, which ended up to Island holiday and that was also cancelled ( Tanzanian Embassy still processing visa) - as I was not recovering. Last thing was to take her to wet land park at Saint Lucia – I could not make it, because there is no accommodation available during Easter Holidays. Almost unwillingly, I took her to Bilane in Mozambique – a lovely lagoon and a full moon on white sandy beach. I was not happy to drive 460 Km to Swaziland and 450 Km from Swaziland to Bilene. High Traffic and police toll gates ( paying police without receipts) were the major issue on the journey. It was surprising that after reaching Bilene, all my pains and sickness disappeared. I was helping my wife on cooking; I was cleaning dishes, buying glossaries and so on. Sometime, if you shift your mind from the current life, you will find yourself more productive. Holidays are part of life, like sleep is part of every day.

This morning, when I was waiting for plane at Gaborone Airport, I promised myself not to look at any news broadcasting,  not to see any tweets or anything. Even today, I spent almost 4 hours on different news, mostly those I missed past one week. How can I stop this love for news? It is killing me.          
  

An evening from distant past

It is a long time –I had no feelings for me. Or I do not have the fun of enjoying inside me. These days – life is complete – with family, kids, and friends. Dreaming of life like now in the mountain. I climb up the mountain and see the white and pure beauty and a reflection of light that makes crimson evening. I see everything is there – for me. Perhaps this is a reward of my hard-work of many years. Seems if the deepest sight of mind, sometimes – still I remember the steps of the ladder I climbed. Sometimes a few lonely evening reminds me – the joy of alone in a wide sea of people.   

Sometimes – I dream of that evening – I was seating in a cottage – opened laptop – could not set my mind to do anything. I went to the cinema – could not like it. I went to take some soup – the whole cup of soup was slipped off and made me wet in a dark cold evening. I was feeling cold; I was enjoying the cold in the dark mountain in my rented cottage.

I was alone in an isolated cottage for three days – with a large and wide view of a valley with patches of clouds at Shimla. It was a log cabin with a patio and heaterer. I passed the last few days of December 2001 to see snowfall and enjoy cold and snowy days at Shimla.

After 11 years  and traveling to many countries in the world – my heart goes back to that evening in cold, snowy log cabin – when I was looking at a pond of stars below and snowy the peak of mountains looked semi-dark, pale but something stronger.

This must be a way to rescue me. When I feel tired – I just remember that evening – there is nothing that can be as lonely as it was 11 years back. Today, I am trying to remember that evening – with the lonely, darkish sky.

I have been living in Swaziland past 2 weeks fulltime. Thinking of the ways changes the operations and management of smooth transition of company into a more efficient company. Business is challenging, management has become much diversified. Focuses and specializations are changing day by day. Positioning of the company and USPs are also moving to different dimensions. Challenging time gives the managers seasoning opportunities to manage the odds.     

When global economic crisis is almost overcoming - economic crisis has just been started in Swaziland. The country is fainting serious economic crisis. Government has only 30% of earning to manage 100% of expenses. The luxury of the country has already gone. Protests and series of violence had already started. Our company revenue in Swaziland Operation has dropped by 40%. In this situation, business became difficult to operate. The necessary steps that we can take are:

1. Remove unnecessary expenses

2. Restructure the organization - try to provide more skill to the employee - so that one can handle more jobs.
3. Minimize the employee turnover - by socializing, managing group dynamics.
4. Communicate openly about the economic situation and our future steps.
5. Participate in the forums to discuss way to recovery.
6. Diversify the market to minimalize overall risk.​

Risk in the business sometime blocks the innovation. Or innovation comes up at the point of risk. I have been looking after the change and how to handle the situation.

Over 70 employees in the company may not be an issue in the global context. The crippled up economy may have huge impact on the overall performance of a small company.

Lifes and Limits

I suddenly, dropped a mail to a friend after 10 years. I told him that I will come one day for a few hours to work on sound, light and motions. Sometime - when i am having a long drive alone, I just think of lights and chances of motions and sound of memories. I feel to capture and I feel to live in creative space. It is almost 11 years - i never read a book or listen music or stand up to how sun sets or rise.
I am living a life which has limits. I can't do what my heart tells me to do. I can't portray mix of my feelings, because i am restricted my works and responsibility.
I know - i will never have a chance to think about creativity, to read a book or watch sun in the blue sky. I have to live my life in the limits that is not created by me. but it was created from my sense of responsibilities.
If you live your life in limits, people will like you, others will respect you or you will have a life - millions are living that way. perhaps you parents that life.
Life without limit gives to understand what you feel about. Like when were at teenage.
It is dangerous to have a life without limit. You may dream of a limitless life. but you can never feel it again - at least in my age.

Shopping

Shopping is not easy. I was browsing around for long time today. firstly, I was thinking of buying bricks for pavement – could not like anything . then I tried to find something to seat outside. Garden chairs and table – those are too basic design. Nothing was exceptional or beautiful. I was looking for sheds, couldn’t figure out – how will it look like.
It is always a bit difficult. I feel very bad of spending time in the shopping mall – when I clearly know that I can’t achieve anything there.

Bangladesh , Freedom fight and Pakistanis

I was watching a Bangla Drama about freedom fight of Bangladesh. I realized that we just forgot 3 million people were killed by Pakistanis, they raped young and innocent ladies of Bangladesh. They messed up the economy and destroyed the future.

I remember I was with a HC of Bangladesh, she was buying present for Pakistani HC of Pretoria. Diplomatic level, Bangladesh is always very close to Pakistan. Even PM Hasina was following Pakistani style of altering time of Bangladesh. How can we tolerate Pakistanis? Few years back, I used to know a few Pakistanis - they are absolutely different than any other nation. They are rough, rude, outlaw and most dangerous nation in the world. How can we tolerate them? How can we allow them to visit Bangladesh?

Now, many people wants the trail of Rajakers and war crimes - they are just targeting local Jamat and related parties. No one is ever saying about Pakistan. Why we are not saying against Pakistan?

War is bad -- we have already witnessed two recent war - Iraq and Afghanistan, 8 years back, i was chatting with one of American citizen, about the mistake they are making by allow troops to kill innocent Afgani people. She was very furious and saying - they invited the war. Afgani people attacked USA, so they are taking revenge. After many years, how this things are happening. Life is terrible, history is different.

40 years back when USA supported Pakistan to Kill 3 million Bangladeshis - which was a wrong decision. At least recent role of Pakistanis are showing the result of US support to Pakistan - never made them think towards decent thoughts.

Pakistanis should be punished - and they will be. Great expectation for those who killed our people - should see the justice. We should seek for justice both Rajakars and Pakistanis who killed people.